Crying, blowing stuff up, and the Beatles

I really really don't like being a last semester senior. I have so much work to do, but can't do any of it because a week ago I was in my "I don't care" mind set and didn't think it import to order text books. I'm already 200+ pages behind in reading. It seems like every day I have 10 more important decisions to make. I am completely overwhelmed by my to-do list, and just life itself.

So today I just decided to get happy. Do things I know will get me out of my funk, and get my mind off everything that is going on.  First, I balled. I hate crying, really and truly hate it. But sometimes it feels good to just cry. I foresee myself crying more this semester. God, lets hope I don't become one of those people that cry all the time. Once in a while in fine, but all the time...no. I couldn't take that.For some people, it is fine to be a crier. I am not one of those people. But today, it was good, to just let loose and cry!

Second, I went out to dinner with friends, which was by far the best decision I've made all day. They totally pulled me out of my bitch/panic mood and put me into a really great mood. I love my friends and seriously don't know what I would do without them! (I would probably just sit and mope.)

After dinner, we shot off fireworks!! That's right, fireworks in NC. In truth, they were mostly sparklers which are perfectly legal in NC. It is really hard to be upset when you get to play with  fire  sparklers!

Then there is this. Here comes the Sun. Thanks to my dad, I have grown up listening to The Beatles and other awesome bands. Something about this song just makes me smile. I love it and always have. So naturally I cranked it up today.  Its not my favorite Beatles song, but its my happy Beatles song.

Sometimes you just gotta get happy. There will be days when crying, friends, or a favorite song won't be enough. There will be days when life is just shit. But there are days like today when these things are able to give me a whole new outlook. I have to remember to embrace the things that make me happy.  It is easy to sit and stress. When I'm having a bad day, it takes energy and effort to be happy! But it is worth the work. I can find happiness in small things, I don't have to let the stress take over. And there is really nothing better than letting something little, something I love and enjoy, totally fill me up. :)