HOWEVER, I have had 5 SERIOUSLY awesome and legit God moments literally back to back! Moments that God has provided for me, encouraged me and reminded me of his love.
First, God has provided me with amazing friends that let me cry in their car or just lay on their floor when I have no energy to do anything else. Friends that love me and accept me for who I am, encourage me, make me laugh, comfort me and even give me some tough love when I need it. God reminds me constantly through my friends that I am not walking this road alone.
Second thing was just straight up encouraging. Rachel Held Evans spoke at CU tonight. I knew she was a blogger and wrote a book or something, but didn't really know who she was. OMG....now I'm in love!! I can't wait to read her blogs/books. She made me laugh and she also made me think. She is very similar to the Blogger, Jamie, I mentioned a few posted back ( so clearly I love her). I was so encouraged by what she had to say and she was hilarious!
Third thing, God totally blew away my expectations. I had a meeting tonight and I hate to admit it, but I had set the bar fairly low. But it was so GOOD! God was moving and working and everything was coming together and it was awesome!!! Everyone was coming up with great ideas and we were all focused! There was some God energy flowing in that meeting.
Fourth, God provided and met my physical needs!!! I got a check out of the blue. It was a reimbursement check that I had forgotten about. I was excepting $30-40. Nope. The check was enough to pay rent AND get coffee!!!!!!!!! Ahhhhh!!! I forgot about this check forever ago! So I was totally blown away by the amount. It came at the PERFECT moment!
And finally, God provided me with assurance! I have been freaking out about SHINE lately, mostly about who will step up next year. I got an email tonight from one of our regular members saying she was interested in getting more involved and possibly stepping into a leadership role next year!!!!!!!! This pushed me over the edge (in a VERY good way). I was so excited I could hardly contain myself.
I know God will provide, I really do. But the last few weeks have been a mixture of peace and anxiety. it was starting to take its tole. I was struggling and just spiritually and emotionally drained. Tonight, God reminded me in a HUGE way that he has, is and will provide for me! I feel like God is saying "I've got this. chill out." In the middle of my craziness, God provided not once but 5 times! Out of love, he has given me gifts, joy, assurance, and pure excitement!
It is so easy to forget how hugely I am blessed. it is easy to left the stress take over and feel like I'm drowning. But my creator is going to provide. God is not going to abandon me. He's got this!
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